I woke up this morning took a sip of coffee and said to my self. "You can do it. You can make it through the day even though your exhausted. You can keep a smile on your face even though you've had a hard week. You can love others in a way that would please God. You can ignore the headache you've had for four days. You can be a husband to your wife, a father to your kids, youth pastor to the students, you can conquer the world for Chirst without missing a beat. You can do it."
Then it hit me. I will never be able to transform the world through programs, personal ventures, or 60 hour work weeks. Even though these things can be used at times, things done in the flesh are doomed to fail. I thought to my self as I drove to drop my kids off at school. "Without Christ YOU won't be able to live the life he's called you to."
Then my wife looked at me as if she was listening in on the conversation I was having with myself and asked, "Are you depending on God or Yourself?" Right about that time Landon, my youngest son, asked if I would turn the CD to song 1. I skipped it back one song and then it hit me. "Which song am I living 2 or 1." and then I thought of the scripture that says, "If any one would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it." Wow I thought "I'm living for two, for me and for YOU. I need to change the song of my life from 2 to 1." Thank you Brook, my "Bambie", for reminding me that it is all about 1.
3 comments:
Wow, great first post hun. (And I'm not just saying it because you wrote about me.) I too, want to lose MY life in the life God wants me to have...HIS life!
And by the way, I think you are a wonderful husband, dad and youth pastor!! I wish I was a teenager just so I could be in your youth group...but then we couldn't be married, that would be gross.
Well, it is about time! I know exactly what you mean...sometimes it takes just a few little words from someone to clear the fog and show you song number 1 is not the only song you are listening to and living by! We all love you Shawn, you are a good man, youth pastor and friend. It is nice to know that you are not afraid to show us that you are not perfect and you also struggle with your songlist.
God is transforming us all from the inside out! I honestly believe that. We better get prepared because he wants to do big things and I think he is trying to get us prepared! I know that things are changing in my heart that I could have never done alone! HE gets all the praise and glory. Great message Wednesday.
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